Tuesday, January 09, 2007

on the drive - opening rituals

Car door locked (knee-jerk Jozi), window rolled down an inch give or take (precautionary habit even with anti-smash & grab tint), ignition keyed, radio face popped into the console, sound turned up, clutch, first gear, accelerate, the first song of the day, every day, play...

If I Ever Feel Better - Phoenix


They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends

I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control

They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all

I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that' s fading away

You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away

Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope

chorus:
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times

But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...

No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost

Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait...

chorus

It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control

I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away

Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how

They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

chorus x2

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

words so true they speak beyond my hearing.. through the corridors of my comprehension they paint a picture of symmetry to my own frenetic consciousness. thank you for the insight spaghetti patel.

SingleGuy said...

Salaams Saleeha.

I've never heard of the song or the group, but then your musical knowledge seems to far outstrip mine. Ever thought of playing on "Noot vir Noot"? You'ed do smashingly I bet, albeit completely out of place in an afrikaans show that has been developed for an afrikaner white and coloured audience. That said, my mom's cousiny once appeared on there as an entertainer, he used his stage name. Also it's my mom's favourite TV Show. That and Sewende Laan. And my mom is as Indian as they come.

Also, thanks for the link to my blog. I especially like the way you've hilited my proffession and singleness.

Saaleha Idrees Bamjee said...

my gran and i love watching noot vir noot, and that show solly philander used to present:) i'm a sucker for stuff like that, even though the treffers tend to stump me. when we were in india on holiday, there was a similar show on one of the cable stations, bollywood stuff, of course, and i was uncharacteristically hooked:)

Junaid said...

never heard this song. seems cool though. i shall check it out.
I used to start the day listening to Counting Crows - 'twas waaaay depressing.
Nowadays i just listen to the beach boys (preferably with the top down and at a fair bit over the speed limit).
In winter though, it's most likely better than ezra...those guys are goood.

Junaid said...

oh and...
I KNEW IT!! I knew that under that veneer of iusefancywordsinfancyways exterior, you were a fan of corny gameshows and solly philander!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Saaleha Idrees Bamjee said...

liriekeraai and hai na bolo bolo - those were the shows.
but nothing beats the stemmet-meister's vocal shirts.

after my appearance on the weakest-link, i dont think i will be gracing television screens anytime soon. and they dont use those oprah-slimming camera's either.

bb_aisha said...

I didnt watch that show,but raz and shen for some reasn wen they saw the othr indian girl thght it was me,n got really xcitd that two of their frnds were on.then they discovrd it wasnt me lol. My musical knowledge is almost nonexistent.like the lyrics to this one. Noot vir noot needs to b buried,tho my mum wil disagree.i njoy sewende laan.miss telefun quiz!

Junaid said...

Seriously??? You were on the weakest link?? LOL! How far did you get? Did you do the “walk of shame”?
And I’ve always wanted to know: does that Fiona lady smell funny? Coz I get the impression that she does…

who's one post short of a blog? who's html tags are not closed? time to vote out the weakest link...she's sooo cheesy - almost as bad as The Hoff.

Saaleha Idrees Bamjee said...

walked the walk in round four.

we couldnt smell her from where we standing. but she did storm off the set twice. the first time was because the crackle from her earpiece was too loud and she likened it to chinese water torture. the second instance was when she threw her rattle out of the cage because one of the contestants accidentally whispered an answer out loud during another's turn.
she's such a little woman. kinda like an elf.

Profane. Profound. What's your poison?